Ride of Emotion ~

Its funny how life can turn on a dime. One minute all is going well, and you are happy.  Then, for no apparent reason, it changes.  Emotion takes over and the darkness shadows your heart.  Life can be that way. Never certain as to why.  Just is.  All in a day, or a moment in time.  Only for a moment, you can find the love that is always there, may feel as if it is suddenly gone, and you feel empty.  Love never leaves you.  It is through this love and the darkness, that your love deepens within. I can’t explain it, it just does.  The tide of emotion, ebbs and flows through my body.  Replacing my blood.  Its hot and cold at the same time; fire and ice.  I sit here with uncertainty laced through my cells, unsure of what will come next.  Reminding all the while, that, this too shall pass, and love will fill my heart again.

Sometimes we must go through the dark to truly understand the essence of time and existence within us; our own being. I find myself feeling like I am in a closet. And all the darkness around me, is me. I am imperfect and my life reflects this. What have I done, why? It is through this darkness I feel my guilt. I feel that I could have done different, made a difference. Impacted the lives around  my with goodness. Instead I feel held back and incompetent in where I am.  The past no longer matters for it does not exist. It has made me who I am and it this is where I be.  It is now, this place in the cosmos of time; this moment that will shape where I am going and what I will do.  It is now that causes me to think of who I have become to see if I can get a glimpse of who I will be.  For that which is within, is unlike who I have known.

“Life may cause us to recoil within to the deepest recesses of our soul. Take time, to reconnect with the spirit within; all that is you.  Clean out all hurts that may no longer serve its purpose. For then one can see all that is.  The light is still there, covered with debris of the past, and all the things one ‘tries’ to be.  It is important to ‘be’ who you are.”  But, do I really know who I am? Have I every known?  “Now is the time for you to discover this; let go of what hurts, know that there is love, and with love one can not be headed in the wrong direction.  You are just where you need to be, and this is the time for you to assess the life you are and create the life you will have by seeing where you are now”  Thank you Master, I see this now.

“Now is the time for you to take respite in all that brings beauty into your life; people, places things. Flowers, waters, peaceful moments in your life.  Draw on all these things to find the source within you, for it is in these things that you are formed. It is within these things that love finds its way to your heart.  Be.  Just be at one when you are near these things and life will rise up within your soul. Your heart will be refreshed and new again.” {Blessed Serena}

Its funny how life can turn on a dime. One minute all is going well, and you are happy.  Then, for no apparent reason, it changes.  Emotion takes over and the darkness shadows your heart.  Life can be that way. Never certain as to why.  Just is.  All in a day, or a moment in time.  Only for a moment, you can find the love that is always there, may feel as if it is suddenly gone, and you feel empty.  Love never leaves you.  It is through this love and the darkness, that your love deepens within. I can’t explain it, it just does.  The tide of emotion, ebbs and flows through my body.  Replacing my blood.  Its hot and cold at the same time; fire and ice.  I sit here with uncertainty laced through my cells, unsure of what will come next.  Reminding all the while, that, this too shall pass, and love will fill my heart again.

Sometimes we must go through the dark to truly understand the essence of time and existence within us; our own being. I find myself feeling like I am in a closet. And all the darkness around me, is me. I am imperfect and my life reflects this. What have I done, why? It is through this darkness I feel my guilt. I feel that I could have done different, made a difference. Impacted the lives around  my with goodness. Instead I feel held back and incompetent in where I am.  The past no longer matters for it does not exist. It has made me who I am and it this is where I be.  It is now, this place in the cosmos of time; this moment that will shape where I am going and what I will do.  It is now that causes me to think of who I have become to see if I can get a glimpse of who I will be.  For that which is within, is unlike who I have known.

“Life may cause us to recoil within to the deepest recesses of our soul. Take time, to reconnect with the spirit within; all that is you.  Clean out all hurts that may no longer serve its purpose. For then one can see all that is.  The light is still there, covered with debris of the past, and all the things one ‘tries’ to be.  It is important to ‘be’ who you are.”  But, do I really know who I am? Have I every known?  “Now is the time for you to discover this; let go of what hurts, know that there is love, and with love one can not be headed in the wrong direction.  You are just where you need to be, and this is the time for you to assess the life you are and create the life you will have by seeing where you are now”  Thank you Master, I see this now.

“Now is the time for you to take respite in all that brings beauty into your life; people, places things. Flowers, waters, peaceful moments in your life.  Draw on all these things to find the source within you, for it is in these things that you are formed. It is within these things that love finds its way to your heart.  Be.  Just be at one when you are near these things and life will rise up within your soul. Your heart will be refreshed and new again.” {Blessed Serena}