Gratitude; felt from the Heart

Gratitude within us

Very often in life do we ever realize what we have until it is gone.. People, places or even things. We have them, they are part of us, and they are gone. While many of us don’t realize this, but it can feel like a lifetime has passed and one thing in our life will trigger the response. Will this do it; likely not. But if we are conscientious about it, we will.

Much like the traits we inherit from our heritage; the inconspicuous nose on our face, wide set eyes, hair that is too thick, or too curly… but what about the wonderful traits we possess, not just the deep blue eyes, or the beautifully hair, I’m talking about the kindness inherent within us; the integrity. Are these possessions that are passed down too?

I have always found myself to be a giver, something that comes naturally to me, sometimes to a fault. This is something that both my parents portrayed without even thinking about it. I saw the smile on my mother’s face when she would give a batch of homemade cookies to the neighbouring children, as if it were something she did for herself, not for them. Perhaps this was one of the small joys she got from her life.

I have been learning what it feels like to be the receiver of these small unbelievable acts of kindness. I was given the gift of a plant. A weed actually, yes, a weed, but not just any weed. It was a weed that has meaning to me.

I had never heard of “Herb Robert” . As the giver of this gift spoke, she talked about how this plant is indigenous to the area and how she learned that it can be used as a poultice  for bruising. Upon gifting me with two wee pots of this herb, she also handed me a  description of this plant, so I could read about all the uses of this herb and how it grows.

I was grateful at her token.

It wasn’t until I read the first line of the copy that I truly understood how grateful I really was.  She had handed me a ‘magical herb’… The first line I read was “Common name: Dragons Blood,…”  Wow, did she truly understand the power of what she had given me? OR how much I would really appreciate this gift. Perhaps she did? And it was at that moment that my heart skipped a beat, and elation filled my body.

The question remains; did “I” truly understand my Gratitude for this gesture? Probably not at that very moment; I most certainly do now. This is a plant that I didn’t know existed in this area. I have seen the written words in my magic books, to be honest, I didn’t really know it was a plant. Now, I had this in my hands. And I will treasure it for always…

It feels so good to be on the receiving end; I wonder if my mother ever had the chance in her wondrous life to be there, to feel the way I feel at this very moment. I certainly hope she did!


A letter to My daughter….

As I sit back in this moment in time, I remember… many years ago, the anticipating your arrival… now… 25 years later here you are awaiting in anticipation your first arrival… I look at you with such pride in my heart, and tears in my eyes. Tears of both happiness, and sadness. This is not of a sadness of pain, or heartache, but one of life’s changing and moving on…

There, within me, creeps up an emotion, and the elation of your little boy. My first grand child/grandson. And how much I love him unconditionally with my whole being. And as the time gets closer. My heart races a little bit faster. My ‘little big man’ … as I know that no love will ever replace the love of his mother. The happiness sparkles in your eyes, and your laughter rings in my ears. I know that my greatest wish has come true, and you have found happiness in your life which contained great sadness and grief in your young years.My heart bounces through the years of your little face, through the years, and I see how beautiful you are now. How beautiful your soul is and it radiates in your face, and within your whole being. If there was ever a time when you couldn’t be more beautiful, or mor gracious, I only need to look at your sweet face each passing day. And, as one more day brings you closer to meeting the little person within you who will soon become the great love of your life. ❤

I have never known the feeling of true love in my heart till I met you my darling little girl. You are the most precious thing in my life, as I know your little man will be the most precious in yours.

Love unfolds within the heart, and the life as you once knew it to be, changes and grows as love enters into your heart. A love you never anticipated, and suddenly the path you thought you were on, the direction you thought you were once headed in…. takes a turn and you find yourself on the most amazing journey that you have ever experienced in your life. A journey you never thought you’d ever have the joy of anticipating. Colours are brighter, smells are sweeter. And there is this new song in your heart. ❤

With every sweetness, must come the sour; good days and bad days. One day, you look back at these moments and know that every one of them is truly a blessing; one that you will never change. Although you may want it to now, but the sours soon will become the sweet, as they become the stories that you too will share with your children and grandchildren as they journey down this road too some day …. and your heart will swell with every passing moment of time.

To say that I love you more each day is an understatement. To say that I am more proud of you with each passing moment; I know this too will change, as I look at you this feeling grows more within my own self, each and everyday, as I look on, watching as you guide and protect your little brood; family.

Know that you are not alone on this journey. There is so much love within your new family; so much caring and giving. So much more than I could ever afford you in your childhood. You are blessed in this respect as well. As I learn each day, the respect that you have earned amongst the lives that you have touched in your 25 years, my pride wells up in my soul. For you are my hero; you are my blessing from God. For you do have a distinct purpose here on this earth, although you may not see it now, I do. This too will change as you hold the hand of your love and walk your path together. One day, you will see the sparkles you have left on the path behind you… and you will be somebody’s rainbow… but until then, revel in the life that lies before you. And when your little man looks up at you with the sparkle in his eyes, know that he knows no other love than you…. Children are always part of us, they grow under our hearts, and when they take hold of your hand, and look up at you for the first time, they steal that heart away from you forever. Grand-children have a special kind of love in a grandparents heart as they are part of the child who stole our heart; love does not split… it just grows and grows.

I love you my little princess…. as you grew into this young woman, and beautiful mother… you are still my little princess with the Pink in her room. and the innocence in her heart… Blessings of love I betow upon you forever ❤ ..
love you for ever… Mummie xoBlessings from the Light,

Angelyn Joy

Memory of a Wonderful Friend!

Blue winter at Dawn
On this particularly grey morning. I sit down at the table so as to have a good view of the lovely garden. A place where we have sat many times before. The place where we would talk endlessly for hours. About everything, and yet about nothing in particular. Our conversations were intense, and at the best of times, silly. My hands wrap around my mug of coffee, my tear filled eyes adjust to the dimness of the blue grey dawn. As I sit at this cyber kitchen table, the only light illuminating the room is a candle on the windowsill. Your light. On this particular day, there is no smell of cookies baking in the oven. No bustling of the dogs as they rustle about your feet, one lying under the table. Wonder what she is thinking?


A slight touch of your hand cresses mine as you sit down beside me to enjoy the view of the garden. A touch that says ‘you are loved’. The greatest friendship I have know grew at this table, with a view of a spectacular English garden, where the faeries and sprites danced about. The garden on this gloomy morning is covered with snow, a few patterns of some small animals, perhaps a squirrel, maybe a wee bird.

I feel a chill cross the room, an auspicious presence fills the air and pull my sweater up tight around my neck. I see a shadow as it moves discreetly across the twilight of the wintry garden. I look closer but, upon close inspection nothing is there. It has moved into the shadows. I smile. In the silence of the colourless room, a tear drop falls into my cup. Memories fill my heart of all the times we sat here. Your caring, warmth and affection forever imbedded within my soul. The love you brought into my life, into my heart, fills my very being, forever. You comforted me in some of my darkest moments, and we sat here as we grieved your beloved pets.

We talked about the memory of my mother, the life of my daughter; whom you adored. In turn you shared some deep precious moments with me. You had a unique gift. One driven by your love and compassion for all living things. Your wisdom has touched so many, I was one of many to be blessed to have your presence touch mine. When you grieved your beloved pets, we sat here in this very spot; I was blessed to comfort you. We laughed, we cried. You were the mother I never had. 

Many times, you were the voice of reason. You were my logical mind that saw me straight. Your words always touched my heart and calmed my presence. You helped me to see things through another perspective. There were many with whom you brought your wisdom and love to. Those who’s hearts and lives you touched, lives with whom you have changed for the better. Soul’s whom are grateful for the exchange. Always a lady of love and grace. A true goddess of your time. You will forever be in the hearts of all those whom you’ve touched. Soul’s you have loved.

I hope you know how you have impacted my life, my heart, my soul. It will be hard to let you go, but the memory of you; the essence of all that you were will live in my heart forever. You have deeply touched my heart, and you will live there forever. My greatest wish in my life is that we would have met. Someday, I’m sure we will.

Across the Kitchen Table

friends_and_coffee1This morning, as we sit across the kitchen table, apologies aside of how long it has been since our last visit. I look out the window at the fresh fallen snow, the sun beams brightly down from the blue sky and there is rebirth that lies underneath the fresh fallen snow, waiting to come alive. I reach across the table and take your hand, it trembles slightly as I look into your tear filled eyes, I feel your grief. Your heart so full of love has only been deflated just a little, I still feel the joy that resides behind your eyes. I see over your right shoulder, a visitor who has just come in. Archangel Raphael in all his wonderful glory, has come to visit and he places his healing hands on your heart.

He says… “All is not lost. There is still lots of Love for you to give. Feel them all around your home, the loyalty and compassion of your lost children, as they fill your home with love. There will be more to come. Many that need your heart. Be strong little child for I will always be in your heart, I will heal the hurt you feel so that you may open to the children that need to be with you. Your ‘furry’ children as you affectionately refer to them, are waiting for you, the new ones to come. Little one, your services are still needed. Pick up your heart for I will hold it for you, open your home to love & joy. You are wonderful and a blessing.”

As these words fill your heart, the room fills with enormous green light, healing light. I see a pink light as it enters into your heart, filling you with love and giving you the strength that you need. Gently, I pull my hand away… and I gaze out the window, towards the garden gate, your reach for the plate of cookies, I reach for the cream. You look to me with hope and appreciation in your eyes, I am grateful to be able to share this moment with you my loving friend. Perhaps we will do it again soon. The cookies are exceptionally yummy and warm this morning. There is nothing more comforting than two friends who’s hearts come together to share. Next time, tea in the garden?

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A Gathering…

Women everywhere gather at spring-fed wells of Spirit to share their hearts and join hands as they move toward more completely expressing their boundless love, magnificent wisdom, and compassionate intuition. To these limitless wells, each of us carries their own container. Each of us fills their own jar. And, each of us is also called to walk with her sister and brothers along the way providing support, guidance, encouragement, inspiration and love.

The best we have to give is ourselves. Each time we gather in a sisterly circle that calls forth our best, a new pattern is stitched into the fabric of the Spirit-quilt that we are fashioning together, and we are warmed and protected in its folds. Our group has met together for a year and a half now and is committed to to helping and supporting one another. Collectively & individually we help each other and I am proud to know you all.

We have here, a circle of women with whom I  cherish! I share my hopes & my dreams with you all and you are kind to me, and you recognize my uniqueness. This is  a safe place where our spirits are ennobled and we each can see ourselves reflected in the eyes of love and acceptance. It does not matter whether our circle is small or large. The important thing is that we are lovingly valued no matter how we feel or what we do, and also that we feel gently challenged to grow our soul.

A woman’s Journey is an ennobling and comforting circle  is as near as your wise imagination. Close your eyes and allow yourself to effortlessly drift into a relaxed state. Visualize yourself surrounded by others who care deeply for you. Sink into their collective arms and accept the love and appreciation they offer. When you’re ready, allow love to flow from you to them until you are an integral part of the circle, giving and receiving equally.

Say these words daily, to assist you in gathering our Spirit:

I surround myself with people who care for me.
I am safe in a circle of loving friends.

Thank you…..
May your holidays and new year be blessed,